Oh, Indra, first I want to acknowledge what you've overcome. The brutality you faced as a child and adolescent could have been life-ending. I'm imagining the amount of strength you had to survive and then get to a place of being ready to face this as an adult without self-medicating. I can see the miracles in that.
I can relate to anxiety, though my childhood origins of it are different. It was really hard to remain present as a child. I was so checked out I couldn't remember simple dance combos in my ballet and jazz classes and the teacher, Miss Reynolds, who was formidable, would become extremely frustrated with me. But in school plays, I danced well. I couldn't identify then that Miss Reynolds triggered the same feelings my overly critical mother triggered and the same reaction in me — zoning out.
I find that the harder I exercise physically, the less anxiety I have. Yoga helps, but when the anxiety is high, I need to jog. I sometimes sob while I'm jogging and I don't even know why. It's a physical release that doesn't seem connected to my thoughts. And meditation is KEY for my wellbeing.
I am so incredibly grateful for Journey to Wholeness. You are helping me more than I can say.
Thank you, Lynn, for your supportive comments. I am proud of who I have grown into and grateful that I didn't die at the hands of some of these people. And I'm sorry that you struggled as well as a child.
Thank you for bringing up the important connection between mental clarity and trauma. We absolutely cannot be at our sharpest and clearest while we are just trying to survive. It's so great that you have been able to understand your reaction to Miss Reynolds. I love that you jog and cry. Brilliant plan, just letting it all out and letting your heart pump that blood through at the same time, renewing you.
I am grateful for Journey to Wholeness as well. It is really helpful for me, too, putting things into perspective and taking stock of where I am and how I got here-- the great stuff and the tough stuff-- all of it.
Oh, Indra, first I want to acknowledge what you've overcome. The brutality you faced as a child and adolescent could have been life-ending. I'm imagining the amount of strength you had to survive and then get to a place of being ready to face this as an adult without self-medicating. I can see the miracles in that.
I can relate to anxiety, though my childhood origins of it are different. It was really hard to remain present as a child. I was so checked out I couldn't remember simple dance combos in my ballet and jazz classes and the teacher, Miss Reynolds, who was formidable, would become extremely frustrated with me. But in school plays, I danced well. I couldn't identify then that Miss Reynolds triggered the same feelings my overly critical mother triggered and the same reaction in me — zoning out.
I find that the harder I exercise physically, the less anxiety I have. Yoga helps, but when the anxiety is high, I need to jog. I sometimes sob while I'm jogging and I don't even know why. It's a physical release that doesn't seem connected to my thoughts. And meditation is KEY for my wellbeing.
I am so incredibly grateful for Journey to Wholeness. You are helping me more than I can say.
Thank you.
Thank you, Lynn, for your supportive comments. I am proud of who I have grown into and grateful that I didn't die at the hands of some of these people. And I'm sorry that you struggled as well as a child.
Thank you for bringing up the important connection between mental clarity and trauma. We absolutely cannot be at our sharpest and clearest while we are just trying to survive. It's so great that you have been able to understand your reaction to Miss Reynolds. I love that you jog and cry. Brilliant plan, just letting it all out and letting your heart pump that blood through at the same time, renewing you.
I am grateful for Journey to Wholeness as well. It is really helpful for me, too, putting things into perspective and taking stock of where I am and how I got here-- the great stuff and the tough stuff-- all of it.